If it's not one thing, it's another

While I'm thankful that I don't have any like... life-threatening disease and what health issues I DO have aren't that bad, I'd still really, really like to have just three months--maybe even four--where I have no issues whatsoever. Maybe just a cold or something. 'Cause this is ridiculous.

Currently juggling cramps, massive onslaught of daily nausea, insomnia, and possibly carpal tunnel (or at the very least, repetitive strain in my wrists). I can't eat, sleep, work or play without feeling like shit and I'm getting so sick of it I could just cry. I eat something and feel nauseated soon after. I can't sleep at night because I don't feel well and my cramps are so bad at night. I can't concentrate on work for all of the above and the repetitive motions of filing, photocopying, typing, etc. aggravates my wrists. My leisure time now? Hahaha... ha.. haa.... yeah I use the internet a lot. Favourite pasttime is posting on a forum. Hard to do when already my wrists are burning a bit from typing this much of an LJ entry. Even if/when I take a break from it all, then what? Can't play video games--that's just as bad.

I'm using LJ for whining too much but I just... don't DO anything otherwise. Got internet working on my laptop again recently and installed Windows 7 but the setup is really, really bad for my posture/wrists soooo can't use it much. Caught up on my anime as of today (or will be once I finish Eden of the East tonight) so nothing to do there. I keep promising friends we'll play *insert game here* or I'll be online to talk on *insert day here* and all I can do is let them down because I just... I can't. ;_; Ugh.

I kind of want to just go to sleep right now but lol it's 5 PM. I also really want to finish 358/2 Days (I'm so close!) but it's probably the worst of all my current activities for my wrists. XD;

			Situated: bed Currently: annoyed ;; Current Tags: health, whining

Six ships you're into right now
1. Axel/Marluxia (Kingdom Hearts)
2. Marluxia/Namine (Kingdom Hearts)
3. Jade/Anise (Tales of the Abyss)
4. Rita/Estelle (Tales of Vesperia)
5. Zack/Aerith (Final Fantasy VII)
6. Canada/America (Hetalia... or in general lmfao)

Three ships you liked, but don’t like anymore
7. Kratos/Lloyd (Tales of Symphonia)
8. Axel/Roxas (Kingdom Hearts)
9. Cloud/Sephiroth (Final Fantasy VII)

Three ships you never liked
10. Sora/Riku (Kingdom Hearts)
11. Marluxia/Vexen (Kingdom Hearts)
12. Luke/Asch (Tales of the Abyss)

Two ships you're curious about, but don’t actually ship
13. Roxas/Xion (Kingdom Hearts)
14. Lloyd/Colette (Tales of Symphonia)

( Questions under here and stuff )

Hum, in other news, I was feeling horrible again today so I stayed home from work. Got some much needed sleep and woke up to the phone ringing at 10:30. I missed it but listened to the message. :( My brother didn't pass Civics & Careers. Sooo now he'll be taking it in summer school. Mom packed up all the consoles tonight and locked them in a suitcase. Well, she did that for all but the 360 because I protested so instead I have to take all the controllers with me to work. 8| Mom said she'd buy me a lock with a key for my bedroom door tomorrow though so I can keep the PS3 and stuff in here. D: At least that way I won't have to ask permission to use the consoles too.

Not much else to say. Life is boring. Civ Rev is fun and addicting. Now off to play more 358/2 because I have a mission at ~Castle Oblivion~ next omgggg. :'DD

Finally--WHERE THE HELL DID THIS ICON COME FROM OMG. :|

			Situated: Bedroom Currently: Confused -- Probopass wat Current Tags: art:icons, family, memes

I've been alternating daily between feeling good and feeling horrible, it seems. Today's been one of those horrible days and I hope I'm feeling better in the morning. I really need to get up and take a shower since I put it off all day and now it's bedtime but... augh. So listless today. :'( So here I am typing an LJ entry instead.

Today was father's day. I cleaned up the kitchen and tidied other areas of the house. I wasn't well enough to go out to get his gift so mom picked that up for me. @_@ My brother and I got him the new Tiger Woods golf game for Wii... the one with Wii Motion Plus. He mentioned the other month that he really wanted another golf game and was thinking of getting it for a console so this seemed like a good gift. :] He said he liked it so I hope he enjoys it. He didn't give us any gift ideas this year and I was a little worried he'd think we were just getting a video game so we'd play it ourselves or something but I have little interest in golf games and only slightly more in Motion Plus anyway so... yeah.

Not much else to report. Saw Angels & Demons on... Friday, I think. Then finally saw Star Trek yesterday. I have never seen an episode of TOS (or any movies) before and the movie made dad want to see them all again so I think we're going to start either buying them or renting them. XD; I'm looking forward to that since it seemed really interesting. (b'-')b

We're heading to NJ again this year like we do almost every year. We'll be down there for the weekend of the 11th. Mom and dad said they're thinking of spending a day or two in NYC again and I got a positive on going back to Nintendo World. Watch them clear out all the decent Pokedolls again this time. (Last time I went, the only ones they had were like... Grimer, Igglybuff, Bonsly, etc. Then like two weeks later someone went and posted pictures from the store on pkmncollectors showing Pichu, legendaries, etc. FFFFFFFFFFFF) I want to get another Shaymin (because I totally molest mine when I'm high and it's not looking like a collector's item as I originally intended XD) and maybe some others... and some Tomy figs. :DD Eee I hope we do end up there again.

LASTLY I'm finally getting into the interesting stuff in 358/2 which means I actually have to stop and translate stuff in cutscenes now, haha. I'm on day like... 270 or something. I just hit the MOST CONFUSING CUTSCENE EVER OMG. It was a voiced one so I couldn't even pause to translate and even if I had I think I'd be confused as fuck anyway and just aaaaah. Aaaaah. What did I see omg I don't even know. 8| Assuming I've been translating stuff right though, it IS super interesting right now. And yay the inside of Castle Oblivion got a cameo and it made me way happier than it should have ahahaha. *dork* I can't wait for this to come out in English so I have more people to fangirl it with. ;~; And so I understand it completely, haha. So many gameplay mechanics are going right over my head, I think. (Also did I mention on here that Marluxia's default weapon has my name in it? I'm not even kidding! It translates to "Traitor's Erica". :DD All of his weapons have names of flowers in them and aaah omg his super ugly default weapon is my name. I had a total dorkgasm when I realized!)

...I need to go take that shower and get to bed. :(

			Situated: My bedroom Currently: Sick ;_; Current Tags: family, gaming:kingdom hearts, gaming:nintendo, health, media:movies, social:trips

hahaha what a shitty day.

Yesterday I was nauseated all day--no pain (yay!) but I also couldn't really get up off the couch longer than a minute without getting dizzy or feeling like I was gonna throw up. Also couldn't stomach any food. :( But that was all better by this morning and was replaced with marvelous cramps. Haha yeah I got like no sleep so I didn't head into work. ;_; I feel bad but this extra day to recover was really good.

Except of course I got an email from my landlord for next year saying my cheque bounced. Um. lol what? This woman already thinks I'm a flake because of email issues or something and now this. loool. So I hopped online to check my bank account and sure enough, it's in the negatives! WHOO my favourite. :( Turns out I was a victim of skimming. My card was probably skimmed at Starbucks or Best Buy (putting my bets on the former) on June 8th. A few paypal payments and my credit card payment went through but on June 10th, 11th, 12th, and 15th, there were ATM withdrawals of $500 and then $460 on the last one. So of course by the time the cheque would've been cashed, there was $4.60 in the account and then since it bounced, I was charged an extra $40. Thankfully everything in savings (a couple thousand x_X) was untouched but I still had over $1k in chequing. :( I called my bank and they said they already froze my account and were investigating. I should have it all back in about 10 business days and I'll be going to pick up a new card tomorrow. Mom emailed my landlord and said she'll courier a cheque out tomorrow so everything should be resolved. The woman on the phone said there was pretty much nothing I could've done because even though I'm anal about making sure I cover my hand when putting in my pin, with skimming that wouldn't matter and it's near impossible to tell when an interac thing has been compromised.

;~; But yeah this still sucks. I was really upset when I noticed so I started crying 'cause something like this has never happened to me before and the landlord already kinda dislikes me so this was just the icing on the cake and... and yeah, the crying got my cramps started again so now I feel like utter shit. fml.

Well, on the bright side, the fact that I can't beat this one boss in KH 358/2 Days doesn't seem nearly as upsetting right now lolol.

			Currently: crushed--i have no emo icons?? Current Tags: health:endo, whining

HELLO EVERYONE I HAVE PAINKILLERS AGAIN. :) :)

um. yeah. Procedure went well! I didn't have to be put under for it (which srsly surprised my doctor) and while it hurt like a bitch, it actually hurt more afterwards for slightly unrelated reasons that I'm not going into. My doctor said I am the best patient ever and she was once again blown away by my pain tolerance. Now I am home and basically doped up. Mind you, it still hurts so later once all the freezing wears off I might have to take *two* percocets but for now this is tolerable. lmfao I'm such a druggie. I kinda missed this buzz. :(

um.

uhhh.

I know I had something else to say but I forget it now. Mom got me new pyjama bottoms. Dr. Seuss ones. with One Fish, Two Fish fish and quotes on them. Awesome omg.

haha okay I'm not gonna remember. I'm just going to post this.

			Situated: family room couch Currently: high Listening to: the simpsons on tv and cbc on radio. all at once. Current Tags: health:endo

( TMI but I have to vent )

			Situated: Bedroom Currently: grumpy 8( Current Tags: health:endo

I don't update this enough and I really should. I guess I'm just not doing anything interesting and anything notable enough to get a mention is stuff I don't really feel like talking about or else I've said enough on twitter.

( I'm nervous though, so I'm venting. TMI and tl;dr below the cut. )

Uhhhm what else of interest has happened in the last while...? screw it. Point form here we go!

→ Mom got her new car the other week. It's nice. I got to drive it (most of the way) home from the car dealership. I wasn't a fan of the colour but it's growing on me. My dad and I have named it BFTZ (pronounced Biftiz, sorta) because those are the first four letters on the license plate and we love pronouncing license plates and that is an awesome one. We took the BFTZ to work today 'cause mom was home recovering from having a tooth extracted yesterday.

→ I've been waiting every so impatiently since May 30th for my copy of Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days to arrive. Some bitch nearly spoilt it for me on deviantART. It was very hard to not download a ROM to my R4 but I prevailed and it finally arrived last night. I LOVE IT AAAAAAH. Gameplay is fun and Marluxia is in it omggg. He teaches you how to fight (or rather, stands there looking *fabulous* with his hand on his hip as you get swarmed by heartless and are nearly dead). And has gotten like 50x gayer. He runs funny. But when he's actually helping you he's probably the most useful partner I've had so far. XD; We had a wonderful time trying to beat this one stupid boss. I bet he hated me for that because my strategy was just horrible. But enough fangirling (for now).

→ They want me to work five days a week at work. BAAAW. I worked 5 days this week and I'm ready to collapse. But... money is money so I'll probably take the offer. I hope this doesn't burn me out. (It probably will.)

→ I need to sell some stuff to make money. :( I really want a new computer since my HP is a piece of shit. I got internet working on it the other day by reconfiguring my linksys router with custom firmware to turn it into a wireless switch but it worked for a day and then stopped and I'm not reconfiguring every time I turn that thing on so it's basically acting as a paperweight right now.

→ Snagged the username "lightningism" on facebook. I'll probably regret that one day since I changed right at midnight and could've picked a plethora of names but oh well. It's only FB. Not like I ever use it anyway lolol.

→ goddamn I'm tired. And it's only 1 AM. Hahaha. Gotta get up earlyish to pick up my prescription for Sunday and then clean up a bit before Dean gets here. He's coming over around 1 to pick up his copy of 358/2 and then sticking around to play. omggg I can't wait to try out multiplayer.

→ I need a new LJ layout. :|

			Situated: Bedroom, falling asleep as I type ack Currently: Nervous ._. Current Tags: gaming:kingdom hearts, gaming:nintendo, health:endo, internet, job, tech:laptop, whining

MS and Nintendo thoughts are short. I got v. wordy with my Sony recap.

( Microsoft )

( Nintendo )

( Sony )

That's about it. I am well aware I still have a huge Anime North con report to write. ;_;' I should get on that this week orz.

Also I found my iPod. :>

			Situated: Work! Currently: Giddy XD; Current Tags: gaming, gaming:360, gaming:nintendo, gaming:sony

ffffffffffffff

I hate Hewlett-Packard. I really do. <_< Shittiest computers EVER.

But I digress. Point-form because if I do paragraphs this will go on forever and I have to go to bed soon. (Hate getting up at 6am for work. HATE.)

1. Was going to see Up yesterday but my parents went out to just look at cars yesterday afternoon and came home at like 7. To tell me they bought a new one. wtf? We're getting it in about a week. :|

2. Spent most of the day cleaning, vacuuming, scrubbing, and polishing our current car so that we can sell it. Put it up on Kajiji and stuff last night and already got interest so it had to be done fast.

3. Missed the 4:50 3D showing of Up so we bought tickets for the 7pm and did some shopping. I picked up a USB wireless adaptor and the person who rung me up was in my class in grade 8 so that was cool.

4. Came home to realize HAHA MY COMPUTER IS SO SHITTY IT WON'T WORK. It picked up the network briefly but wouldn't get internet and when I tried to fix it, it stopped working entirely. Whoo.

5. Saw Up! omggg it's definitely one of my favourite Pixar movies! It really, really sucked that so many people brought their kids to it though. (Who brings kids to a movie at 7 PM on a school night??) Mom took forever getting ready (again) or something so we got there with 5 minutes to spare and there were no seats together so we sat apart since the other option was sitting in the very front row which is a big no. So I was near the back on the end of a row and there were loud kids all around me including one who had to go "DID YOU SEE THAT? IT'S A BLIMP" etc. for the whole movie. Ugh. :( Loved the movie though!

6. Came home and dad immediately yelled at us to clean up the stairs since someone's coming to see the car and he piled everything in the house that didn't belong on the main floor there. Now he's super angry because he can't find his driver's license. /sigh

7. Still can't get the wireless internet working on my main laptop. I can't play WoW *and* Skype on my netbook (not enough memory). I can't keep playing it on the desktop because I'll get kicked off too often and dad doesn't want anything hefty installed on it. Can't play it on the old desktop because it has a keyboard that infinitely types 44444444444444 or aaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I dunno what I'm gonna do since we started that up again. Or for the first time depending on if my two days of trial counted or not. Sooo I'm gonna have to spend ages catching up at this rate.

8. Guess I'll try the stupid USB thing once more and if that doesn't work, maybe I'll take my off-time on Tuesday between E3 keynotes to reconfigure the wireless router I have lying around into a bridge. I know there are tutorials for it. SOUNDS LIKE FUN. :(

9. I still can't find my iPod. Maybe I really did leave it in Waterloo? ffff. I can't afford a Touch and that's the only replacement I want now.

haha see? Such a long entry. Imagine if I'd actually done that in proper paragraph form, spending forever on each point. You people would hate me. Anyway, gotta go make myself dinner and get to bed within 20 minutes or I'm losing sleep. Hooray!

			Situated: Bedroom Currently: Annoyed :( Current Tags: family, gaming:wow, tech:laptop, whining

1. fonicarte → cherubi
On Thursday, a lovely anon bought me a rename token after a conversation on twitter. I've had *such* a busy weekend that I didn't have a time to sit down and use it. I messaged whoever owns the account "cherrim" on LJ but no response all weekend so I've decided to go with the name I presume it was bought for. :> jigglypuff noticed that "cherubi" wasn't taken so I snagged it. ♥! No more fornication jokes, sadly, but oh well. This'll take a bit of getting used to.

2. ANIME NORTH. PEOPLE. OMG. ;______; Both eternalaegis and ausaudriel went home today. Audy'd been here since Thursday afternoon and Jeef since Friday morning. I MISS THEM SO MUCH ALREADY OMGGG. Real con report coming later when I'm not deathly tired but I just miss everyone. ;~; I want it to be next year. We had SO much fun. I was worried it might get a bit awkward but from the moment I found Audy at the airport to hugging him goodbye and everything in-between, it was just amazing. There was like zero awkwardness and it was just like our crazy 9inchpizza conversations in real life form. Next year can't come soon enough!

3. ausaudriel and I are going to be talking really gay for the next like two months oh my god. :( "HAY GURL, ON A SCALE OF ONE TO FABULOUS YOU'RE SUPER FABULOUS. ♥" etc.

4. Did I mention I miss everyone? ;~;

5. PAF!

6. I'm dreading tomorrow since I have to get up at 6 AM. :(

			Situated: Home in the computer room Currently: Sad. v_v I miss everyone. Current Tags: anime:conventions, friends, internet:livejournal